If you remember, in October, I wrote a funny and interesting blog in which I discussed a playwright. While I have no interest in him, he seems to still be interested in me. He felt need to sit near me last week at church and strike up a conversation as if it was ok to talk during church. He then proceed to ask if he was going to meet his future in laws when I told him to get up because I was saving seats for my parents. I would comment on this but I don't even think its worth it. SMH...why?
The real reason of this post is to obviously address the person I mentioned in my October post. Well he is no more. Yes, I know I said it was promising. And yes, I was slightly disappointed. It left me wondering What Happened?! I think because I'm not really a dater and because I'm not used to meeting people and figuring people out, its a bit odd to talk with someone and hang out..then one day a conversation changes everything. Leaving one confused on what happened. I have several ideas on why I don't think this situation worked out. And to be honest, somewhere deep within me, if I as Oprah says, "stand in my truth", didn't think it would work out. And don't look for me to trash the guy, I'm not. I don't think he is a bad guy at all. I do think the timing of our meeting may have played a role in it not working out but, I'm also learning that it really doesn't make sense for me to put too much time and energy into figuring out the why.(Wow, its only taken me getting to age 31 to realize that...but thank God for revelation!)
*Update* Because I received a couple of questions by people who wanted to know what happened...here it goes. We had went to the movies the day before and I asked, "Is there a reason you seem distant" He replies, "I'm going to have to think about that." The next day at the end of a normal phone conversation he basically says he hasn't gotten the feeling that we should be together, and felt that I wanted that right now. (Which I found interesting, since we had already clarified that I'm cool with getting to know someone but not willing to take 5-6 months to do that with no commitment. We were only a little over 2 months. Especially if I talk to you daily and see you every week. Which was his only real benefit but I feel getting my attention and company is important.) My response to this was, "OK, I understand." And I essentially said a little more than that, but without being upset I just said it was better to cut our losses now. He wanted to still talk as friends, I felt that we couldn't do that right now. *shrugs* (That is the long and short of it. I do have an excellent memory but feel I don't need to completely go over the entire convo.) So I haven't talked to him since.
Getting older has helped me to realize that someone has to like me the way I am. Including my desire to want to be in a relationship, at an appropriate time, and not be a "friend."And if for whatever reason he, we, or me decides that its time to move on...I don't need to worry about what happened. All I need to do is keep working on becoming the best me I can be because I'm the only person that I can control.
"Because you gotta know when to fold 'em, know when to hold 'em, know when to walk away...know when to run. " From the Gambler sung by Kenny Rogers (Sorry, I am from Texas and like Country Music.)
Do you have any stories to share about moving forward?