Long time no write. I haven't really written because I've been very busy with work. And because I don't think there is anything new to report. Because I'm working so much I don't have time to think about anything except work and where God wants me to be. Things should be slowing down for me very soon and maybe I'll think about it. Likely, I won't.
I realized that work can come in the way of relationships if you let it. Maybe that's why some people want to find someone to date at work. If you read my post on dating someone at work I'm sure you will see that I disagree with that option. I guess part of being 30 is wanting to be established. And I am trying to make sure I understand where I am supposed to be in life. I recently decided that a "friend," and I use that term because we never defined ourselves as more than that, needed to remain just a "friend." And while I think that at this time my decision was correct, I did kind of wonder...was that a mistake?
It would be very easy for me to fall into my past routine of thinking that something is wrong with me for being single, but I refuse to do that. I am well aware that from past experiences, read my posts on ex-boyfriends and settling, that I no longer want to live that way. Part of really living a full single life is accepting periods where you may not be dating someone or going on dates. And to be quite honest, I'm really ok with that. I am happy that I can begin to focus on my future and realize that the more wonderful I feel about myself and my life, I am in some way drawing all sorts of wonderful things into it. And someday that will include love.